It does gets a little tiring to constantly comparing myself with others. Feeling so lousy inside because i could have been someone who is so much better. I do get reassurances every single time but girls being girls, we can't help it but to compare. We girls always try to be at our best self so that we could potray ourselves better. I have no idea since when have i started acting like this because for the past 18 years of my life, i had NEVER compare myself with others. I used to believe i was good enough for the people who matter around me. My confidence was there even though i knew i wasn't the best. And i guess this is the reason why i've been so moody these few days. I don't know how but i gotta find my confidence back and i have to.

Well sad things aside... i can't wait for my exams to end as well as my academic year. It has been such a.... roller coaster kind of journey for me. I had totally been through the worst kind of days before and i never ever want to experience it again. I'm pretty aware how hectic my schedule gonna be since i have to handle 2 camps with all the preparations.. BUT i really hope i'm able to take at least 2 days off from it to have a staycation with b since we couldn't go overseas together. Really can't wait. At least something for me to look forward to :)