Now that a big responsibility is on my shoulder, all i want to do now is to prove that i can do it. To show people that i'm capable of doing something and this is the reason why i'm pushing myself every day even though i seem like i could break down at any time of the day. This is even tougher than i can ever imagine, and in exchange of the time that i'm spending for this preparation, i'm aware of the things and people i have to sacrifice.
I know what's my limit and will stop only when i NEED to, not when i WANT to. So i sincerely hope that you wouldn't keep asking me to pull out from the camp. I don't need these kind of words or advices, but words of encouragements. For the fact of the people that i'm sacrificing, people have no idea how bad i feel inside every night. Not even much time for my parents. There isn't a night whereby i would reach home and sleep peacefully after washing up. For the things you have told me this afternoon, i'm truly disappointed.. i will let go when i need to and you can go all out to do whatever you want with your freedom.